Yuno

clearly i have no idea what’s going on here…
i took my shot at the holidays and tried to enjoy the warmth and comfort that family brought me.
after all that has gone,i just again step into the dilemma.
the main reason why i am puzzled and struggling and hesitating is that i need a guidance line to make me feel that i am on the way doing something.
i even doubt myself whether it’s worthy or not choosing to stay with my grandparents for the last few days.ok just for a moment.
The teacher’s right,i am too passive at this point of my life. i kind of let those things choose me which is not a bright choice for me.
but how can i be more active and positive? remains “?”.
what’s going on????
i don’t even know a thing.